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You send me an sms saying that you and dad don't know how to get along with me, feel that i'm very unhappy in the family. You said to be honest, you and dad feel very tired. If thats the case, thanks for seeing it through and finally knows that im unhappy. If u n dad plan to rush me out of the family, so be it. Anyway, u guys are always unsastified of what im doing, when i stay at home, u guys suspect im upset. when im out, u guys are unhappy becuz i stay out so late, keep siding on my sister even if she is wrong. When you ask me to help manage my sister, ok i did but u insist later that only u can do it, i can't. yea another great person in the family, my sister. My dear little sister, you will never admit and apologise on what u have done, nor treat me like a sister. I really duno what the fuck u all want out of me.

I don't feel any value in the family at all, im waitin for u to rush me out and i bet u will want to do that long time ago. Dont give me this fucking crap of family love. Go ahead. i can be alone or slowly fade off in this life. I think even if i am out of this world, u guys wun even feel a single thing. u guys have fucking disappointed me so much.

i definetely need a beer, and hope to get a million dollars, just to migrate somewhere alone.

Hi diary, just finished econs test today. Well i must say the paper was quite okay for those who did the sample class test paper. Some questions are exactly the same. But then the time is only like 50 mins and the paper doesn't look like a short paper to me. Seriously, i feel quite unfair for this because by the time i finished the paper, i looked around and everybody seems to be rushing like hell when the guy said time's up, drop the pen. I don't even have the time to check, then realise a little mistake here n there. Damn the time limit, is too short man, but what to do, is their rule. But well, i know i can pass but not sure will pass how well. So yeah, screw the paper, is over lol.

The next will be stats. Out of all this is the most that i hated. Well not saying the course is bad but the project is very boring and stupid. I have been rushing like hell for the dateline and yet learning nothing. Even my group members also don't know what we are learning from this, lol. Well again, is the course structure. Sometimes i wonder will they really take in feedback from us as every end of semester, they will get some course feedback from us. oh well, i just wish i can get through this asap. And ya, i also hate the tutor. Hes like so attitude and so kpo. I was late for his class one time and he scolded me like shit. Should have look at his eyes and attitude, like i own him like that. I mean come on la, you are just a part time tutor teaching your stuff. You are not even my form teacher or what leh, kns lor. And he was so last min in getting reply to our project, made me redo everything in just one night. And the most fucked up was his attitude, said something like he is very busy, so don't expect him to reply our mail in a day or two ok. Thats exactly how he sound when he added "OK" at the back of the sentence. Waaa then what the fuck you set up an email for?? Whats the purpose of us sending early to you when u asked us to send to you asap? Use your head to think before you say.

Ha i suddenly thought about something funny. I mentioned to one of my friend that since i moved into this new school, i realise all the tutors was so nice and good. Until i met that idiotic tutor, then i started to say that i finally found a tutor that i hate in school. Then my friend replied me," you go school is to find some tutor to hate huh? " I was like wtf hahahahaa, so funny. And now i got two tutors to hate. Because another tutor also scolded me without making things clear. Seriously, dont you guys use your head to think before you say? For goodness sake, you are a university tutor man, not primary school teacher leh. Now i realise part time tutors do have some sucky ones too. Oh well, got to start stats revision soon, and then again chionging assignments in due two wks later.. haiz when is it gona end, i wana have holidays laaaa~~ I just wana faster get over it and enjoy my life. Seriously, no life now~ =(

Today's weather was raining rather heavy on my side. And i really do wonder sometimes if the weather understand my mood. Whenever it rains, i always happen to be not feeling good on that day. Thanks the weather for understanding me though. I felt really tired from all the stuff been going on, and i really do meant that i want to have a break. I even thought of giving up my studies, even though i just started for like 1 month plus? But i worked so hard for the projects..the assignments, even though there was some unfairness. So the more i think is wasted to give up just like that, i need to fight for it man. Yea i ain't gona give up, but is the process that im really tired and stress with. Every week non stop assignments, non stop rushing. It is every week mind you, one comes after another, not like two or 3 weeks then one assignment or what so ever when i was back in my poly times. Maybe some people seems ok with that but to me, its really not easy. My parents asked me for the first time, is it really so busy? oh well, so no life lehh~~ Work harder body clock, bear with me for two more years!

The tiger never gives up, move on ~~~

Finally! I'm finally not so lazy today to update this blog. Sorry diary been ignoring you these while. Well oh well oh well~~ so many things have happened as usual, still find here is the best way to talk to. Ha, listening to bon jovi's song right now, so enjoying myself with " Its my life ", and two BOM BOM sound. If anyone know this song, u should know whats the meaning of the bom bom hahaa. Well, its giving me the mood and accompany to update this blog~

I have been finding the right kind of style for my blog but still ain't no suitable ones until I came across this skin. Although it is still not the one im looking for but it gives me a simple yet beautiful feeling even though is just a leaf so well, this shall be the one! hehe~

Oh well, school has been hectic for me man. Projects, assignments, tutorials, non-stop man. Need to really get a life on that. Haiz, havent been shopping a lot, eating gd food bla bla bla~~ And now, econs test on monday. What to dooooo "BOM BOM! ITS MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEE "
HAHAHA!

Also, many things has been going on and i just nice came to thought about a lot of stuff today. I start to realise is it so hard to be simple? Well definetely i wun say im perfectly good, but then i dont know y i tried so hard, and it dosent even matter. Sounds familiar? Yes, a song by linkin park. It has been goin on my mind since what had happen to me from primary 5 till now, just can't shake off this clueless question, even though i know its an no answer question. Well, life is really like a rollercoaster, and yet you don't know why you can't stop the ride for just one second. You just have to keep riding it. be it whether you like it or not, until you are dead. Unfair huh? Sometimes you feel like slowing it down but well, roller coaster is meant to be fast. Sigh.

I start to feel the fast ride since i was in primary 5. Things have changed dramastically for me and i have changed from a cheerful person to a emo kid, a very very emo kid. Sometimes i wonder how i came through all these shitty rides. Oh well, i shall update it again as i want to say some recent stuff going on.

Been seeing many disasters happening and i really pray there will be peace. Its really sad to see so many people going away. I'm sure some of them are such happy families, living their very own happy life but it so sucks that this life they can own for the rest of their life, have to be destroyed in just split seconds. When can this world just stop a while for peace? I wondered.

Sian, gona b 2am now. A while more have to continue studyin econs test but what to do because is......

"BOM BOM! ITS MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE"
HAHAHAA~